– Red black and blue
All of a sudden I felt a vast wave rise within myself, some great elemental feeling of being suddenly, jarringly abandoned. Like some long-time lover had departed the other side of a sleepless night. It came over black and gushing as water through an overflowing ford in the nadir of a winter evening. And all the things around me seemed to be cheap, ersatz, facsimiles of real things. Platonic ideals given fleeting form. And captured in that way their preciousness devastated. Everything pale and bland.